Sunday, May 31, 2009

2 down 10 to go...or forever...whatever

2 weeks down and I'm feeling good. I'm still trying to figure things out. Anyone have any good pre-workout snack ideas? I workout so early that I started out not eating anything but found out that by the time I got to the weights, I had zero energy.

I tried to have willpower against the scale but I stepped on it and now it's official...the scale needs to be destroyed! The first week I gained 2 pounds so I decided that I would start tracking my calories and gained another pound....that's all I'm gonna say about that....or I'll start crying and I don't like crying in public. I know it's temporary and I know that there are several things that might be causing it but it still sucks.

I really do feel good and stronger and "OMG it burns" is getting easier. Some mornings it's tough but it already feels like habit and I like it.

Besides the whole gaining weight thing, the only tough part is that I'm seriously tired by 9:30 which only gives me like a half hour of quiet evening time. But I'm managing.

Friday, May 29, 2009

I totally recommend

having a friend you haven't seen in like 14 years, come visit!!!'s cool.

Ann and her hubby Todd came to visit last weekend. I haven't been so excited and nervous in I don't know how long. Sadly, I didn't get to play as much as I wanted too since Twilight Van is in the shop. BUT, it was fun. Plus, they made us dinner that LM and I ended up fighting over the next day.

Me and Ann

I think summer of '91

summer of '93

last weekend.
I just want to point out that I'm wearing my workout clothes and I had just got done working out. Normally I would have used a visit like this as an excuse NOT to workout. I've really grown as a person...

Ann, look what I found when I went looking for pictures of us. I don't know how I got this picture but I'll send it back to you. I'm REALLY hoping you two have little girls, look how totally adorable they 'll be.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I'm crying

tears of joy. She's almost done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohoo!!!! They are just waiting for 1 part that they had to reorder. They're saying June 1st! OH MY GOSH!!!!! This has been the longest month of my life. Now to decide the game plan to pick her up....decisions decisions. Amy, I might be calling you...just a warning.

Isn't she beautiful??? You don't really have to answer that I already know.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


1. I hurt. But it's the so called the "good" kind of hurt. I'm cursing my house with all it's stupid stairs.

2. Getting up at 5:30 is no problem when you fall asleep at 9:30 because your so freakin tired.

3. Walking with my best girlie friend makes walking so much funner. Thanks Carrie for letting me sucker...oh I mean talk you into getting up even earlier to walk with me. I love ya!!!

4. Walking up a hill that I've loving nicked named the "Oh My Gosh, It BURNS!" should be done at the beginning of our walk and not the end of the walk. It doesn't look menacing but trust hurts. And for some reason, it makes me completely aware of all the other hills in town.

5. You should not start a giggling fit while walking up "OMG, It BURNS!" with my best girlie friend because it makes it REALLY hard to breath.

6. I look like this after my workout and I'm told it's normal. There should be some after school special that shows the scary dark side of working out.

7. I feel great!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

She's lookin so much better

I love the updates that the body shop send me. It's nice to see how much better my girl is doing.

New door and side fender thingy!!!!

They have all the parts now so it's just body repair/ reassembly!!! woot woot!

I thought the kids were fine, they seemed fine until the other day, we were driving along when a car full of kids rode up next to us and honked their horn (what we heard right before impact). All 3 kids in unison let out this ear piercing scream. I'm guessing they aren't over it yet.

Action Jackson

My oldest baby is 12 years old today. It's so strange that he keeps getting older but I don't.... weird how that happens.

Jackson went through a chubby period that lasted about 1 month. I loved it!
4 generations! LM, Great Grandma Richardson, Grandma Clubb and Jackson.
Jackson and his best friend Sam. They were born 7 days apart. Jackson on the left, Sam on the right.

We love you Jackson! Your still the best present Ever! Thank you for being such a great kid, son, and brother.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Ready, Set, Gooooooo

I don't know if it's because it's been wonderfully warm and sunny the past few days or the idea that summer is almost here or that Bub used the potty for the first time yesterday or that I finally got caught up on The Biggest Loser, but whatever the reason, I'm feeling very motivated to set some goals and finally take care of myself.

By nature I'm a pretty selfish person but when I gave birth to the first of 4 kiddos, I kind of tucked that away and put my energy into them. But I've finally decided that I'm no longer going to put myself last and keep feeling yucky, ugly and fat. Soooooo I'm giving myself a 12 week challenge. First 4 weeks it's all about exercise, I'm doing 1 hr of cardio 6 days a week and alternating upper and lower body weights 5 days a week. Today was my first day. My arms are really shakey...I hope that's normal. I feel it's aggressive but not so aggressive that I'll quit.

Starting with week 5 I'll be adding calorie restrictions. I'm not looking forward to that but I'm hoping by then that I'll feel like exercise is more of a habit then a chore so I won't feel the pressure of doing 2 things that I find challenging right now.

Starting week 9, I'm gonna do it....I'm gonna quit diet pepsi...again. I'm more scared of that than anything else. I heart it, it's been my life force for 12 + years, it's what keeps me going and motivated to get up in the morning...and it's totally going to suck.

Anyway, I thought that if I post it here for everyone to read that it'll help with motivation. I know that if I kept it too myself then I would eventually quit. Sooo, I'm giving you guys a job, you have to ask me how it's going....I hate to put pressure on people but I'm counting on you.

I'm tracking measurements and taking pictures...I may or may not post them at the end of the challenge. It depends if I'm emotionally stable enough to handle that information going out to the world. Right now, I can barely handle the information.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

It's all about the Twilight Van

The body shop sent me some graphic photos of my mini van. I don't know if I should be happy that things are on the mend or cry because I never wanted to see my van look like this.

Monday, May 11, 2009

I'm totally the anti-cool

because I sooooo miss my mini van gize! I know I can muscle through our separation but it sucks! Not only does LM's commute car not fit all of us at one time (not that it really matters because I'm sick of my kids), but it sucks to drive. It's a stick shift and it's been a really long time since I've driven one and even though I learned how to drive on one, you would think that I was just learning. I can't tell you how many times I've embarassed myself the past week driving it. I think I've killed at least 3 times at stop signs and had a few problems shifting. Also, I'm still having some chest and back pain and it hurts every time I have to shift and don't even get me started on how long it took me to undo the hand break when LM parked the car at the airport then left me almost crying and cars honking at me because I couldn't undo it. WAHHHH I want my van back!!! I haven't heard yet if the body shop is still on schedule, originally he said 3 weeks... I don't know if that was hopeful on his side or not but I hope it's true.

I'm just trying to console myself with my awesome iphone but sometimes that isn't enough....